I've been feeling really low since last Thursday. A friend I knew for a while invited me over for her sister's going away party. She was joking and telling me how when she invites me over I never show up or anything. It really got me to me that it brought down my mood and my mood has not changed from her words ever since. I texted her that day saying how my hubby was like I could not go that Friday but will go over on Sunday. Sunday did not happen either. It was too crazy at home and the weather sucked for me to go out with the kids.
The thing is I WANT TO GO OUT but never cannot. I am usually busy with family obligations or such. This was the second time someone has called me out on it. The first time, I proved to the girl that I will keep my word. This time I was not and have been beating myself up over it. I said I would and then could not. Does that make me a hypocrite? I keep having this hadith come up in my head.
"Abdullah ibn ‘Amr (RA) says that Rasulullah (SAW) said: “Four traits whoever possesses them is a hypocrite and whoever possesses some of them has an element of hypocrisy until he leaves it: the one who when he speaks he lies, when he promises he breaks his promise, when he disputes he transgresses and when he makes an agreement he violates it.” (Muslim and Bukhari)"