Saturday. the guys all went to train with Raz at the trucking place. Like 10 til maybe 330, 4 pm. It was annoying because I have not had any time with him. When I mentioned it last week that we spend no time together, he called me clingy like my sis in law. My mom and them are getting new windows and the workers were late both days like 2-3 hours. So on Saturday, everyone came over, even my daddio, who I rarely see but talk to as much as I can. Ever since my grandpa passed over a year ago, its like I want more time with my parents. More time to learn the stories of who they are and where they came from, their struggles and hardships. Basically their life histories.
My youngest sister asked hubby, "why does he ignore me and not sleep near me anymore?" His answer is that when he comes home, I'm in a deep sleep and he does not want to bother me or give me a hard time.
So back to me and my hubby. The Victoria Secret Semi Annual sale was this past weekend, and of course I have no ride to get to the mall. When you are basically due in a month's time, you need someone with you always in case your water breaks. So my chauffeur is my hubby. Sisters were busy with their own thing. He was like we will go after my mom and them leave. The house was cleared by Magrib (evening prayer) and then off they go. They guys go to the masjid to pray the evening prayer and do not get home til like 10. So no mall today.
I was mad over that promise being broken and I been very understanding this past month of them needing to finish this truck training. But when I'm ignored, I feel it and get depressed. I get so depressed my mind starts racing at all the possibilities out there.
So my guy comes home with his brothers and my brother. I go lay down on my bed and cry. thinking to my self the song, "I'm so lonely" that Carleton from Fresh Prince would sing to himself. I was tired of being ignored. Had a headache and tired of being stuck at home all week long. You need a change of scenery every now and then. you know? he comes over and ask whats wrong? Nothing is my response. I say, "don't you have to be with the guys enjoying the free time?" Nope, I'd rather be with you. "yeah right." then billy comes crying into the bed and squeezes in between us and says "no room" he's not fitting in.
My daughter stayed that night. She came with my mom and her dad wanted to see her. She was out the house the entire week. I told him I do not want to hear any screaming. So he takes her in the back while everyone leaves. She asked, "where's grandma?" I said, "grandma went home. If you want to cry you can." I do not like it when people lie to little kids to pacify them. Its easier to just pull the band-aid off and let them deal with the pain. That's only if I'm around. After five or so minutes, they are finished crying and better. Otherwise if I say, "oh, she's in the bathroom." and she's really not, they will start learning to lie and will wait for her to come out the bathroom. One sharp pull and the band-aid is off. the pain will wear away soon enough.
Later that night, me and hubby put each of them to bed. Then I sneak in next to him but my daughter's coughing had me run back into the room next to her.